Category Archives: Unfinished Thoughts

Those posts that I wanted to at least get up even if I couldn’t complete the writing or the thought that went behind it.

Handing Off

Originally written on March 9th, 2017

Well. Welly welly well well. 

I’ve been trying to multitask the shit out of everything and avoid dropping the ball on a project that I’ve been working on. And, predictably, its resulted in me starting to drop the ball on ALL of them. That’s kind of how it works when it comes to trying to do too much; you end up sucking at EVERYTHING. 

So I had to have a hard discussion with my Supervisor and Project Lead for one of the jobs that I just can’t do it all. Because I also have this other role in the company that I fill which I can’t plan for that also messes up my shit. 

Anyway, it has and is going to continue to require me putting in some overtime. There is some stuff that I need to wrap up and hand off on one job and then other things I need to do to get caught up on another two jobs where *I’m* the Project Lead. There is engineering to be done and materials to be bought… and I ain’t done shit. 

I feel bad doing it, like I’m leaving a co-worker in a lurch… but it will be worse later if I don’t do it now. I have a bad habit of taking on too much and not managing my workload properly. I’ve gotten better but it’s still a problem for me. 

Lost To The Ether

Originally written on March 2, 2017

This probably would have been a better idea for me to do years ago when I was writing a lot more. Now, it feels like I’ve already lost the vast majority of my writing to the cyber-ether. I would like to be able to look back at my documented history and reflect upon it. Maybe marvel at some of the things I wrote in that it was I who wrote something well thought out and poignant. 

Sometimes, the old ways are still the best. When all is said and done, a book with withstand the test of time far better than memory; nothing and no one can escape the ravages of time. Not even technology. Especially technology. If I want to view some of those writings that I saved within that XML file, it isn’t easy. All of those words are interspersed amongst so many code fragments that it is barely intelligible. 

Even writing this is pointless unless I transfer it to paper. These words will be stored somewhere within Apple’s iCloud servers and easily lost and/or deleted. That seems to be the progression of our society; that we continue to own less and less. We lease this, rent that, subscribe so that we can borrow… none of it is OURS. It’s someone else’s property. Without that ownership, we have no control over it and, thus, have less control of our own lives. We are more easily becoming pawns to be manipulated en masse.

I’m not overly materialistic however I do recognize the pattern of society handing over ownership of our own destinies to both government institutions and, more significantly, to corporations. It’s a choice we make in our search for cheaper and more convenient. As space around us is taken away, our individual footprint becomes smaller and smaller.