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Strength Of The Mind

Strength of the mind

Looking back on the life that I lived

What I leave behind

Mistakes and memories serve to remind (they serve me to remind)

The reflection staring back from the mirror

No longer looks like me, like me

Strength of the mind to fight what’s inside

It takes strength of the mind

Before I lose control

Who can raise you from the fall and save you? Only you

Who can take the pain away and change you? Only you

A thousand miles between this never ending feeling

Just looking for something more

Searching for a release

I’ve seen rock bottom and I’ve smashed my fists against it

Just keep telling yourself it will be alright

Who can raise you from the fall and save you? Only you

Who can take the pain away and change you? Only you

Gather all your pain and suffering

Turn them into strength and weaponry

To overcome the enemy

That’s in you, that’s in you, that’s in you, that’s in you

Come face to face with a war that rages in you

Yeah

Who can take the pain away? Only you (only you, only you)

Who can raise you from the fall and save you, and save you, and save you

Only you

Strength of the mind

Before I lose control

Darkness Within


Here in the darkness that I lay, depression heavy in its weigh. And how my body aches to leave, to sing its final eulogy. My sons I love you evermore and, though the road beckons once more, I see the damage that I’ve done in search for redemption.

But I am just a broken man whose soul cries out to understand how the madness shatters me. Upon the stage on bended knee, I scream out loud at skies above that answer mute, bereft of love. I struggle not to fall from grace or sing the hymns of my disgrace.

We build cathredrals to our pain, establish monuments to attain freedom from all of the scars and the sins lest we drown in the darkness within.

Mystery’s forgotten chords; I strum in vain to please the Lord but he has never answered me, my faith has waned eternally. In empty men who pass along, the woes of all religions wrong. But now the shadowed veil it falls… heed the clarion call. 

So pray to music, build a shrine, listen in these desperate times. Fill your heart with every note, cherish it and cast afloat because God is in these clef and tone. Salvation is found alone; haunted by its melody, music it will set you free. Let it set you free…

We build cathredrals to our pain, establish monuments to attain freedom from all of the scars and the sins lest we drown in the darkness within.

Music, my saviour. (Save me.)

We build cathredrals to our pain, establish monuments to attain freedom from all of the scars and the sins lest we drown in the darkness within.

I Apologize

One day the shadows will surround me. Someday the days will come to end. Sometime I’ll have to face the real me. Somehow I’ll have to learn to bend. 

And now I see clearly…

All these times I simply stepped aside; I watched but never really listened as the whole world passed me by. All this time I watched from the outside, never understood what was wrong or what was right. I apologize. 

One day I’ll face the Hell inside me. Someday I’ll accept what I have done. Sometime I’ll leave the past behind me. For now I accept who I’ve become. 

And now I see clearly…

All these times I simply stepped aside; I watched but never really listened as the whole world passed me by. All this time I watched from the outside, never understood what was wrong or what was right. I apologize. 

One day the shadows will surround me. 

All these times I simply stepped aside; I watched but never really listened as the whole world passed me by. All this time I watched from the outside, never understood what was wrong or what was right. I apologize. 

I apologize. 

Born Losers

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The more that I think about this still anticipated split between my wife and I, I’m growing much more at ease with the reality of it. 

I heard this song driving into work this morning; it’s the first single from Canadian singer/songwriter Matthew Good off of his Hospital Music album released roughly 10 years back? (That can’t be right, can it?) Matt had recently split up with his wife Jenny and was very tortured over the whole thing. He went on a long acoustic tour right after which, at the time, felt like it was some kind of therapy for him. After that, he recorded and released Hospital Music which I felt was more therapy for him. 

Listening to the lyrics to Born Losers, I feel that bitterness and also feel that I’m on the verge of freedom and maybe even some kind of vindication. This marriage has largely been an exercise in pain and desperation, grief that I will feel lighter without. 

https://youtu.be/GlrJaw5HK6g

‘The Sound Of Silence’ by Disturbed

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Hello darkness, my old friend
I’ve come to talk with you again
Because a vision softly creeping
Left its seeds while I was sleeping
And the vision that was planted in my brain
Still remains…
Within the sound of silence

In restless dreams I walked alone
Narrow streets of cobblestone
‘Neath the halo of a streetlamp
I turned my collar to the cold and damp
When my eyes were stabbed by the flash of a neon light
That split the night…
And touched the sound of silence

And in the naked light I saw
Ten thousand people, maybe more
People talking without speaking
People hearing without listening
People writing songs that voices never shared
No one dared…
Disturb the sound of silence

“Fools” said I, “You do not know
Silence like a cancer grows
Hear my words that I might teach you
Take my arms that I might reach you”
But my words like silent raindrops fell
And echoed in the wells of silence

And the people bowed and prayed
To the neon god they made
And the sign flashed out its warning
In the words that it was forming
And the sign said “The words of the prophets
Are written on the subway walls
And tenement halls
And whispered in the sounds of silence”

‘Turbo Killer’ by Carpenter Brut

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I was looking up new industrial music a few months back and the name Carpenter Brut came up, I can’t say that I was blown away at the time just because my expectation was different than the music. Having listened to Perturbator since and recognizing that they are musically similar in their devotion to 80s movie soundtrack revival-type music, I came across Carpenter Brut’s video for Turbo Killer on Vimeo and decided that maybe it was time to give them another chance.

Vimeo link, in case you want to avoid the commercials on YouTube: Turbo Killer