While another chapter in my blogging life has come and gone… I think it’s time to close this chapter. I’m not certain, but I think this blog has restricted me to things that I can’t publicly own up to. In some ways this is good but in some ways this is also extremely exhausting emotionally and something that prevents me from blogging… writing. And writing is something that I do enjoy.

I feel that writing can help me find myself again. I’m lost right now and afraid of coming out of my shell. The last time I did, it almost killed me however… I know that I need to come back from it. I need to figure this out.

Granted, I haven’t put 29 years into my marriage but this is my life. I learned that I was valuable as a father and as a provider but not as a husband, much less a lover. I didn’t wait 29 years.