To be like the rock that the waves keep crashing over. It stands unmoved and the raging of the seas falls still around it.
Stoicism #2
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Stoicism #1
Concentrate every minute like a Roman-like a man-on doing what’s in front of you with precise and genuine seriousness, tenderly, willingly, with justice. And on freeing yourself from all other distractions. Yes, you can-if you do everything as if it were the last thing you were doing in your life, and stop being aimless, stop letting your emotions override what your mind tells you, stop being hypocritical, self-centered, irritable. You see how few things you have to do to live a satisfying and reverent life? If you can manage this, that’s all even the gods can ask of you.
Marcus Aurelius Antoninus
A Return
I needed to prove that I could be loyal. That was why it had to end. Now that it has resurfaced, it is proven that I am a scoundrel.
But why has it resurfaced? I allowed it to resurface. Why? Obviously, I am looking for something. There’s something I need that I don’t currently have… it fills some kind of void in my existence. What is it?
Current running theories:
- I crave the feeling of shame. That, for some reason, I need that burden upon me and my conscience.
- I am simply weak. I don’t have the moral constitution to just walk away and never look back.
- I hunger for things that I can’t have. Like a spoiled child, I want those things that aren’t mind and will act out when I can’t get them.
- I crave attention from wherever I can get it. I am an attention whore.
- I am shallow and self-centred. No one else’s feelings matter to me.
As with most things, it is likely a combination of all of these issues mentioned above. And, while I may have some good attributes and characteristics, I am deeply flawed on a personal level. Damaged goods, as they say.
My plan is to analyze these running theories and any other theories that I may have. Try not. Do. Or do not. There is no try.