I watched this rerun episode of The Nature Of Things about addiction:

http://www.cbc.ca/natureofthings/m/episodes/wasted

I found it very informative but it has left me feeling quite melancholy. I feel like I’m broken and always have been broken… that I was predetermined to be this way. I have wrecked so many things and because of my actions in the past, I will continue to wreck things… setting events in

motion that cannot be undone.